100% original - Step 1 of revisiting Ways to Please God

As some of you guys know, I'm an amateur songwriter. Been writing songs ever since my spiritual sista, Benji, prayed a vision for me at a G12 conference years ago in SIS. OK, this is prob something u must know as well: Debbie Jude ain't someone who's like super duper holy...she listens to secular music most of the time, as that was what she was brought up with..and EVEN now, she enjoys some of the arrangements/music quality that secular music has to offer. I know this so totally goes against what we're being taught - stay away from secular music!! - yah, ah well...what can I say? Maybe God will deal this thingie with me later in His time.

Anyway, after accepting Christ, I didn't really have the so-called 'passion to sing'. But I recall clearly it all started with the cell (we weren't gender homogenous then) going to some ulu KTV in a CC. It was my 1st time there, and frankly, I was never confident of singing in public, coz I think I sound like a guy. But I do enjoy my bathroom singing moments. XD So anywayz, the first song I sang was Shania Twain's 'From This Moment'. And for some bizarre reason, I think I enjoyed what I sounded like! And so did my pals (Joo Ghee, Roger, Samuel, Shujun, Liping..). So I started taking a more 'conscious' approach to worship and singing - I enjoyed it, I sang loudly during service and cell, and started doing what I call 'vocal gymnastics', singing by parts with a different harmony. Worship became fun, active and personalized!

It was then that I decided to pick up some guitar playing skills, coz' then my cell went gender homogenous, and gasp! All the guitar players were mainly guys. So, I voiced my interest to a mutual NUS Arts fac church buddy, who taught me simple chords with his guitar, 'Samuel'. His 'Samuel' was a 2nd hand he got from JB (another 'anointed' story). A few weeks later, he got a new guitar, and asked God what he should do with 'Samuel'. And this was the incredible thing he said...He said that God told him to bless me with 'Samuel', that 'Samuel' was his Isaac. I was stunned. Being a young believer then, I had like zilch encounters with such 'anointed' moments. Hence, I accepted 'Samuel' with loads of God-gratitude. Since then, I was frantic in my thirst to play well. It eventually led me to writing song adaptations..I wrote a faster version to Give Thanks, and a different sound to Thank You Jesus. Worship became really fun and creative, because I could worship God with my own words and feelings. I dedicated those songs to God, and felt in my heart, that God was pleased with these simple gifts. Basically, I believe God helped to revolutionize my QT with Him too! Hehe~

Then I met God at the G12 conference. I vaguely recall asking God to use me the Potter would with His clay. And Benji came up to me and said God wanted to give me a vision, the vision was me leading a huge crowd to worship God, and this crowd was larger than the one in SIS! I was dumbfounded. In my mind I thought, how is this possible? Aiyah no way lah. I'm so amateur. But I decided to believe in it, slowly. The prayer that Benji prayed for me, gave me an indescribable, unexplainable 'God-energy'. A day later, I composed a simple, 100% original song - 'Conversation with God'.

Return of the Super Monkey...

Back to skewl!!!

Thank goodness for korean dramas!! The September holidays hasn't been that tuff to go through after all..Gasp! What am I saying? Of course I must thank God for the following that made my September Hols a splash!

Thank You Lord for..
1. The leaders' retreat - especially all the lessons taught by You through Ps William and Ps Debra!!
Really enjoyed the structural experience via sandcastle building. Am so encouraged by it that I wanna purchase a set of my own pro sandcastle building tools and play with my cell!!!

2. Fellowship with my G12 - Really looked forward to the retreat cos' I'd get to catch up with my sisters..indeed, it was a goodtime of chitchatting and praying for each other.

3. Canoeing with my cell and sister-cell on Wednesday!! - That's when we learnt that Costa Sands has CLOSED its canoe shop, and that the Big Splash one only offers to those certified canoe-ers..Duh. Anywayz, it was real fun as I got to play with the girls and Jonathan! He he..Canoeing on a single boat seemed scary at first, as it isn't as stable. But it got real fun!! Yes..I got wounded by my canoe cos it kept hitting the shoreline (sighz) and I had to push it out several times. But fret not, the wound just looks like the cat's scratched my leg, that's all.

4. Dating with Rennie - Well, not really long dates, just short lil ones for supper. (Yup..tummy expanding..gasp! cut down calories, D prince!) Been discussing about baby names, and we both think that Xing(4) Ai(4) (Faith+love) sounds kewl.

5. The ample physical rest - something which I've been seriously lacking, but God's good! I am idle (for a while) again! Hahah..ok..too much of idling and lazing around is not good. Thank goodness the hols is a short one.

God, I miss my students at KCPSS. Really miss talking to them, and teaching them. I know You have great foresight, and Your plans for me are perfect. If it is in Your will, and if it pleases You, can I be posted back to KCPSS again? I miss 3truth, my Lit class, my Drama club, my colleagues, 2Peace..everything, even the Western food stall. But I trust You Lord. Even if it means I won't be posted back there. I'll survive cos You'll be going thru everything with me, right? :)

Ok, before I leave, above's a pic from my fave K-drama thus far - Princess Hours. It's coming to Channel U pretty soon! Hehe..guess it fits the 'back to school' theme.

'Peter Pan has decided to make Neverland outta my table of organized chaos', Hooky Captain D Lil Prince grimaces.

I have not vomitted in ages. My new calling has robbed my existential reason for interaction with other (Brokeback-moment) Sapiens.
I am a lone orang utan. (Although I'd much rather be a chimpanZeeeee)
Well, a few good things remain-
1. I've started playing my Samuel again, after what seemed like 3 mths of hiatus.
2. I am still writing my debut play, 'Confessions'. It's abt 1 month and hmm..3 scenes + 1 monologue long - blame my creative juices, that always pick the most auspicious, blessedly divine time to churn...
3. I still watch Korean dramas.
4. I still get paid. Overworked and underpaid, that is.
5. I still try to dress well for every occasion.
And a few new, good things have emerged this season too! Oh Joy!
1. McDonalds' Milkshake is back!!!!!!!!!!!!(This is like Best News of the Year 2006, hope it makes it to TIME magazine.)
2. I've learnt how to burn my CDs!! (Joy!!! Actually, I overcame my laziness.) Now I can actually record my compositions live and produce homemade CDs for my pals!! Oh. I still need a microphone and a recorder. Dang.
3. Huimin promises to lend me Naruto! I'm getting a bit restless, especially after I've finished Inuyasha. Hmm, should I start on Bleach? (Hey, I NEED my social life in spite of my busy schedule.)

Should I change thee to suit the circumstances of the world? But the entire population wants to be superheroes..and my dream is to remain kid-ful. I don't wanna grow up I'm a Neverland kid. I can make mistakes. That is my choice, my power. Before I go off tangent again, I shall end with a Langston Hughes poem I read today:
"Hold fast to dreams
For if dreams die
Life is a broken-winged
bird
That cannot fly."

Verbal Vormit by Wendy Wynbloughs (*note the alliteration. Shudder*)

Christmas greetings everybody, from Her Royal Happeningness, Princess D aka D Little Prince! It's Christmas time again! And just a royal present from Her Royalness to you all, an Inuyasha-Christmas based picture! Kawaii!!!
Yes it's the dreaded time again where I finally resolved to lose the excess kilos and yet can't, because of the turkey, the fondeaus and blah. Horrid, I say. One thing different about this Christmas is that I'll be celebrating it with my Shekinah babes at the Expo!! Woohoo! Christmas at Mount Sinai!! Wonder if it'll snow..maybe God will create a miracle there, since City Harvest is there too. Without a doubt, price of land will definitely soar in that area. So sanctified, so basked in the glory of God. Mwahahah.
Without further ado, let me present to you, Princess D's ultimate must-haves Christmas shingalings (pretty-shiny things) of the year 2006:
1. Shiny tiny X'mas ball like earrings.
For just a mere $10 per 3 pairs of earrings, you can get yourself all decked up in the Jingle Bells spirit with this beautiful ball-shaped earrings; available at the basement of Bugis Junction.
2. A Harry Potter: Goblet of Fire book/poster.
If you're like still stuck in Philosopher's Stone/Chamber of Secrets, catch up! You've got loads of reading to do before the movie premieres in December. If you think there's lots to read, try Goblet of Fire, the number of pages triple from that of Prisoner of Azkhaban. Ok, if you're getting the poster, do get one of Hermione (Emma Watson). She's grown lots prettier. But sad to say, Harry and Ron are not looking prettier/cuter. Sigh. And the former wants to be a serious actor. Hope he's able to get out of the Harry Potter shadow. I can just imagine his post-Harry Potter blockbuster, 'The Wizard', or 'The Seventh Sense' - sequel to The 6th Sense, done with more magick and mystery.
3. Another feather-furry pen (perhaps something to go along with the Xmas theme this time round? *chuckles*)
4. A K-Box card. Works for all seasons.
5. Lancome Juicy Tubes lipgloss
Tried and tested. Believe me, it's brilliant. Girls gotta look good for the upcoming Big Move, Xmas party (one held during 31st Dec, hosted by William and Debra - now you've been informed), the New Year Party at Expo, etc. It really complements the brilliance from our Shekinah Tribe pretty shingaling blingbling sash!!
6. Another blingbling sash. All colours for all occassions at Top20. Although I really suggest getting the longer version from Suntec. (no longer available at J8)
7. A new cocktail dress. Well, the Xmas party by William and Debra's a formal one. Daniel told me that the guys are wearing ties. =) Let's go shopping! I'm sure there are affordable ones around during this Xmas sale.
8. Christmas tree decos. Available at Spotlight. While some of us may not have the habit of decorating Christmas trees, we can buy some small lil ones and decorate our room! Especially if your wall is bare and looks really bored to you. A lil dress up during this season will see u pepped up as well!
9. How can we forget the wine? A nice glass of dessert wine at Dampsey Rd. Very ulu. So we need transport! We must do this!! I can only drink in the presence of my Shekinah girls and family!!
10. Last but not least, the most important thing we gals must all have this season - a giving heart.
So let's not turn away the ever-smiling-rattling-donation-cans-as-if-they're-bells flaggers. :)

OK back to work!!
Princess D's fave Xmas song: Christmas Christmas by Alvin and the Chipmunks.

Hey Fiddle Twiddle..the bat and the widow..the sloth slobbered all over the maroon moon...

Good morning people! After scolding a bunch of kids yesterday, I immediately went on a retail therapy rampage. But lo and behold!! What did I do while I was in Christmasy-decorated Orchard Rd - the equivalent of London's Oxford Street/New York's highly fashionable Saks 5th Avenue? I settled my OCBC bank account, tried to solve my EZ Link problem, and headed down to the heartlanderish-Popular to purchase - gasp!!- 5 $0.75 plastic files!!
So much for retail therapy. Oh, of course I did head into Marche's to have my good ol' bowl of Mushroom soup (which I really believe should be renamed Mushroom Congee) and some sashimi. Yum yum.
When I went home, I did the most un-Debbie thing ever!! I actually started to file my CPF/Income Tax/SingNet/M1/OCBC monthly bills and statements!! Argh!! But happy lil me was so held up in cloud 9 that I showed the meticulous (one can boldly afford to claim so since there's only one entry of bills from yesterday forth) filing system to my Dad! Yeah, thinking that he'd stop piling continuous financial advice on me. But again, to my amazement, he actually gave me a 3-min consultation this morning while driving me to work.
So because I've started watching my pocket relentlessly, I am beginning to think that having a male interest who works in an establishment such as the MAS, doesn't seem to make much sense anymore, since I've been 'carved' to be a conscientious, extremely particular file-system maniac. Really, economics and all things pink and purple-Inuyasha-glitteratzi-Jo In Sung-Rain-furry pens-absolutely Debbibotic (as opposed to Bimbotic..hmm makes a good title for my bloggie, dun ya think? *giggle*) doesn't seem to match. I mean, I've always thought of finance and econs to be green. Lime green, if we're pushing it to funky.
Thus, after a wonderfully queer Tuesday, I decided to start afresh with the kids today. After all, I told myself that I'd make a difference. Hence, to prep myself up, I wore a lime green Giordano top. Looking all financially prim and fresh like jasmine tea on silver cups. Managed to at least *cross fingers and looks towards the glorious Heavens* breathe life into them aka wake them up from their idea lah! I think I've raved enough. I shall go chow on some Green vegetables now.

Mad about Korea..n actors...

Anay-o-Haseo!! (supposedly 'hello' in Romanised Korean)

I'll be going to Korea in December. Can't wait!! Hope to see my fave Korean actors.

Here's D_Lil_Prince's top 10 list:

1. Jo In Sung (in 2005's Spring Days; The Classic; 2004's Shooting Star and What Happened in Bali) He's the guy in the black and white pic. You can access his other pictures at http://www.popscast.com/detail.asp?code=a_m&star=581 ; http://asianfanatics.net/forum/lofiversion/index.php/t18688.html .
2. Rain (in 2004's Full House; Korea's top performing artist. He's the guy below.
3. Lee Dong Gun (in 2004's Little Bride and Lovers in Paris).
4. Cha Tae Hyun (in 2004's First Love of a Royal Prince)

Well..it's my top 3 list then. The top 2 guys I like have possess a signature 'bad-boy'/mischevious look. Hmm...does that say much of my taste in men? *grin* As for no. 3..he's got this goofy boyish look. Only 25/26, but always getting matured roles. No. 4 is always acting the cute-bad-boy. However, I don't just like them for their looks. Jo In Sung's acting improves with every show. In the most current one (Spring Days), he plays up both extremes of playful innocence and angsty lover really well. His performance has made me cry upteen times. (FYI: It is in my opinion that Spring Days be voted No. 2 Korean drama, after Da Chang Jing, for its brilliantly scripted psychological-drama, plus stellar cast ensemble)

Anyway I'm really bored.. Got nothing to do till Wednesday.

Lookiong forward to my pedicure with Dorine later. Mwahahaha.

"We'll be right back after these messages"

After a long 6 months (wow!!!) hiatus, D'Lil Prince has returned!!!

But I'll just keep it short since I'm dying to leave school. Hahaha..It's 1418 hrs!!!

Things I really wanna do once I get my paycheck:
1. Get a decent white working shirt.
2. PEDICURE!!!
3. A decent pair of working pants.
4. U2 denim+pearl jacket!!!
5. Tithe - the most important yup yup, must write this down since my cell group members are reading this!! (kidding)
6. rebond my hair?
7. I-pod Nano?

Things I really wanna do once I get home today:
1. Bathe in mom's toilet. (cos it's bigger and sunnier)
2. Drink a hot bowl of delicious Campbell's Chicken Noodle soup.
3. Watch my Korean drama, Full House (Rain!! I love Rain!! Kawaii-ne!!)
4. Sleep like a log for an hour.
5. Chow on a slice of cheesecake.
6. Prepare for a battle against my Sec 2 class for Lit tomorrow.
7. Most importantly, settle my Broadband modem. Urgh..irritant.

Miszy Debbie

What is it going to be like at the end?

The quality of life?
What is the quality of my life? What do I want to achieve at the end of today?
What will be my emotional attachments? Will I be able to account it all to God if I'm suddenly taken away from this life one day? Can I face God? Will I be able to? Can I stand in judgment? The Bible says we can, once we accept God into our lives, our salvation is sealed. But take a look at this..
Matthew 7:21-29
21 "Not everyone who says to Me, 'Lord, Lord!' will enter the kingdom of heaven, but the one who does the will of My Father in heaven. 22 On that day many will say to Me, 'Lord, Lord, didn't we prophesy in Your name, drive out demons in Your name, and do many miracles in Your name?' 23 Then I will announce to them, 'I never knew you! Depart from Me, you lawbreakers!' 24 "Therefore, everyone who hears these words of Mine and acts on them will be like a sensible man who built his house on the rock. 25 The rain fell, the rivers rose, and the winds blew and pounded that house. Yet it didn't collapse, because its foundation was on the rock. 26 But everyone who hears these words of Mine and doesn't act on them will be like a foolish man who built his house on the sand. 27 The rain fell, the rivers rose, the winds blew and pounded that house, and it collapsed. And its collapse was great!" 28 When Jesus had finished this sermon, the crowds were astonished at His teaching. 29 For He was teaching them like one who had authority, and not like their scribes.
I am afraid. Not for my salvation, but afraid that I will be sucked up by the ways of this world. I am afraid I can't hold strong, and that I will stop wanting to know Jesus more. That my love for Him will grow cold, my heart a hardened and thus, useless piece of stone. That whatever I DO, SAY OR even what God perceive of me, is tainted by the ways of this world.

I fear that I will not be able to stand upright in front of God and instead of running to Him and hugging Hin like a little child would, I will just crouch away into a corner for fear and shame creeps into my heart. It is then I will forget that God loves me. And all that I care is just my guilt and sin and the fear of being punished.

So I have decided.

This life is not a race to finish, but my life I have decided, is a journey in which I seek to know my Father. I do not care if my peers or family around me think I'm crazy about God. Why not? I'd rather be crazy for Him than anything else in this world and that includes Inuyasha, my nice room, my books, my music, etc. Without Him, I am nothing. I want to know the Lord, I know I already have a relationship with Him. But IT CANNOT STOP HERE. I want to know Him more. I want to reflect His image. So that when I do see Him at the end of my journey, He receives me with open arms, and I will them Him all my corny jokes, I will play my guitar for Him, I will pray over my friends and family who are still alive with Him, and eat old-fashioned vanilla ice-cream with Him, and of coz, ask Him questions which I've always wanted answers for.. like 'So how are we able to LIKE ice cream so much?'/'Where is Hitler now?'/'Will I see xxx in heaven too?'/'Can I continue serving You?"/'Can I speak to Moses?"/'What does mannah taste like?'/'Can I watch over xxx?' etc.

My goal this year is to know God more. And the verse that will held me to remember that for this year at least is, Jeremiah 9:23-24 This is what the Lord says: 'Let not the wise man boast of his wisdom, or the strong man boast of his strength, or the rich man boast of his riches. But let him who boasts boasts about this: that he understands and knows me. That I am the Lord who exercises kindness, justice and righteousness on earth. For in these I delight', declares the Lord.

It doesn't matter what others around me think. But if everything I do and say is considered righteous by God, why wouldn't the rest think otherwise? After all, the Lord's standard is the highest. In all things, it is the Lord's opinion that counts most. But before I know whether everything I do is in tandem to what God believes is good, then I must seek to know God more, so that I can confidently assure myself that God approves. Otherwise, I will only be deceived by my own actions. So Lord, grant me a thirst to know You more and an open, soft heart towards You. This is my desire. This is my purpose.

The Miss-Adventures of Debbie The Little Prince

Worshipping You despite all odds

Well, the results I've been waiting for since the semester started is finally released. But alas, my name is not on the Dean's list. I guess You could feel the pangs of disappointment I felt when I noticed the absence of my name. Not that I worked towards being on the list in the first place, but having great results last sem, and the thought of having a chance of being on the list made life seemingly more heightened and exciting. It was as if for the first time, You believe I was a genius.

But I didn't geddit. And even as I sit here and type now, I can't deny the feeling of doubt. Well, I could say IT'S OK...AND I'LL GET ON.. but I know You desire me to be 100% honest. So here I am scribbling away in an attempt to have a good conversation with You and iron out my feelings before my test at 1400 hrs.

So weird thoughts started coming into my mind - is it because I've decided not to sign up for BOTC this weekend? Cos I felt I had to put more emphasis on my study? (haven't caught up with loads of readings..plus a draft to hand in on Mon) Or is it becoz I've been so slack this sem that You want to jolt me up from all this slackness?

WHAT AM I STUDYING FOR? WHY AM I PUSHING SO HARD?

Becoz when I do my best in studying, when I piah, I feel good. I feel bolts of energy just surfing through me. I feel exhilarated. I get high. It's the same feeling I feel when I finish composing a song, and sing to You- my 1st and main audience. It's as if I know I can do this and I was made to do this. And as I do well, You are happy too. And You want me not to take granted the things You bless me with, so that I can realize the potential You give me, so that from there, I realize how much You love me.

It hurts that I'm not on NUS Dean's list, BUT I KNOW I'm always on Your Dean's list when I go all out. And that's more important, because You are my Father, and I want to do things to please You. I cannot outgive what You have so unconditionally bless me with.

As for BOTC, You reminded me last night - the verse that stuck out - 'I desire mercy, not sacrifice'. I am trying very hard to rein myself from making a hasty decision. I want to know where exactly You want me to go. I'm struggling very hard to hear Your voice. I want so much to hear You, and not assume You.

One of the funky things You showed me was that even as I study, I can worship You too. Thank You Father. Thank You, for reminding me that the most important thing is to be on YOUR Dean's list, and not anybody else's, becoz it is YOU who give me the brains in the first place.

In saying this, I'm sorry if I haven't been as hardworking...I will try to be. I don't want to take Your gifts and love for granted. I WILL TRY TO LIKE IT 1003...

So now, I will go study for my Stylistics test...Hmm...still a bit blur. But I will just do my best. =)
p/s: I love You,

Your little prince,
Debbie Jude.

The Miss-Adventures of Debbie The Little Prince

Blessed are those who dwell in Your House!! We will grow from strength to strength, until we see You face to face!!
I awoke to the sound of loud bangs on my door, waking up immediately to check what the commotion was about..in case my Daddy had sent the air-con repairman to repair my aircon...but I checked and realized that no one was at the door. I was puzzled, until it came to my mind that it was my Crumpler bag which was hanging on my door that was making all the noise. The wind in my room was strong enuff to wake me up!! HAHA..

So I decided to just wake up..(had a good sleep..about 7 1/2 hrs)..and read into the 4th day of The Purpose Driven Life by Rick Warren. It's been my Quiet Time staple for the last 4 days..haha...how am i gonna finish reading the New Testament by September? Haha..By faith, I shall!

Chapter 4: Made to last forever

Today I learnt that God has planted eternity in our hearts. Many of us strive to attain longevity. In fact, it's in many of the ancient traditions to have that desire - immortality. (Remember Chang E and the evil emperor who made elixir pills?) As a Chinese who's been exposed to the tradition and culture, this thinking is not new. It's not just prevalent in myths, but in our culture too. I still remember the 'peaches' and the 'Fu Lu Shou' that we spew phrases about during my grandparents' birthday, the longevity beehoon noodles and to married couples we'd wish them 'Chang2 Chang2 Jiu3 Jiu3.'

I believe we all have that desire, becoz God has set eternity in our hearts. Why God? Why that desire?
Perhaps my life on earth is only a transitional phase (hahah a cliche we all love to use), in which to prepare me for a lifetime with God in Heaven.
But what does that mean?
A life in Heaven with God...
Simply put, He loves me so much, that knowing Him on earth is not enough. He wants our relationship to extend beyond that which will pass away. He wants a permanent and eternal relationship with Him!!!!
Isn't that exciting? To spend my eternity with God, He who loves me so much!! When I pray, sometimes I imagine what it's like to be in heaven..to envision..and the vision is always this, I'd run to God, (we're all in white...hehe..common movie motif..and for once I won't look fat in white) in a vast open field of lilacs and lavendars (purple mah)..and we'd be just laughing, enjoying each other's company. He'd talk to me, closer than a good friend and .. I'd sit on the swing, with God pushing me from behind!!!! And we'd never tire...Sometimes I also imagine what kind of job/'heavenly' mission God will reassign me to once I'm with Him. Maybe I can be Cupid!! Haha..the angel who pulls red strings..since that's quite my forte on earth already, or maybe I'd be His source of muse and encouragement, to speak words of good faith and hum melodious, ORIGINAL (no pirates in Heaven ah..) to my earthly brothers and sisters..

You know my friends, if I happen to die suddenly, do not fret, but if u do cry, shed tears of joy for me, becoz I believe I'd be with Him in Heaven. And if u do get inspired to compose a song or write a poem, maybe it's God sending me to you, to be His DHL/Fedex messenger!! =)

On a lighter note, I believe that's what my eternity with God will be like, but knowing God..it's going to be much more than this!!

Knowing that He wants to spend eternity with me, then I must do what I can to ensure that I don't get kicked out of Heaven haha...may I always stick close to God..that I won't disobey Him, and if I do, be quick to repent...I mean..if that final day comes, will I be able to bring myself to full account to God? I know His grace is sufficient for me, and my salvation has been stamped. But I also want to live a life He's proud of..every child wants her parents to be proud of her. Let my life be a sanctuary, that everyday I live, let it be filled to glorify His name and fulfil His purpose. Let me do the things He want me to do, and not on what I want to do. So if this life on earth is only a mere glimpse of what it's like on Heaven, let me concentrate on what is eternal, work on food which will endure and not spoil. Father..please grant me Your guidance, Your wisdom, Your serenity and courage, to do the things You want me to do. Thank You Lord, Amen. =)

D Lil Prince's wishlist this Xmas

MY WISHLIST!

1. Renovate half of my bedroom:
Meaning, the bed area. I wanna chop off the irritating triangle above my bedhead. It's wasted space! Plus..maybe get rid of my old hifi..
2. wanna put a TV inside so I don't have to disturb my granny anymore when I watch my anime doublebill (Twelve Kingdoms and Inuyasha on Arts Central every Wed, Thu and Fri night 11pm-12 am). A pink/purple tiny TV =)
3. It'd be nice to get a real bed so the cockroaches (aka DA/XIAO qiang) won't climb all over my face anymore. Eww eww eww.
4. A snowflake charm (which I saw at Suntec. Pretty pretty!)
5. A replacement for my lil girl fake diamond bracelet (eaten up by the Plaza Singapure escalator!! Murder in broad daylight!).
6. A new set of bikini.
7. A purple accoustic guitar..if not red would be nice =)
8. A green/red fighting fish to intimidate Ziggy..I would call the new one..Zag. =)
9. A pair of Gola/Adidas shoes.
10. An Adidas white jacket with blue stripes =)
11. A new pair of funky spectacles which I can wear when I go out.
12. A pair of funky sunglasses..Oakley? ;)

Hmm..Santa..I've been a good kid this year!! =)

'Rapak Noi' Chapter 1

Red On Snow Chapter 1

Red autumn leaves. The first few drops of snow. The end of red autumn, the beginning of dead cold winter.

Reika is now 17 years old. She has been under the care of Sister Florence in Bright Star Orphanage. Under Florence's care, she grows up to be a well-bred, intelligent but quiet little girl. She still has rough visions of her past. The past in which her home was robbed from her in the span of a single night. She still remembers her brother's incessant wailing, wailing as if he would lose his voice any second. She still remembers the kindness in her father's eyes, and how forceful he looked when he bid her farewell. It was the energy and life in his eyes which gave her the energy to move on. But most importantly, she remembers the sound of her mother's voice. Faint, but warm. A distant lullaby. Reika is only comfortable speaking to Sister Florence, who is her mentor in the earthly realm. The longer she stays in this place, the more distant her memory of Kwai becomes. In fact, there is a part of her which questions if her distant visions were dreams to begin with. It is three days to her 18th birthday. She'd have to leave her orphanage and fully enter the world of an adult. Reika takes out her snowflake necklace. It is the only object she possesses to cling onto her past. A bloodstone cut into the shape of a snowflake, tied with the string of a horse-like hair. In her hands, the charm seems to sparkle with an elusive warmth.

Kwai, year 1659, Liken period.

Duchess Lucinda has taken over Kei Kingdom. It was rumoured that she was found by Ko's Kirin, Ko-wa. The duchess does not have Heaven's decree to rule Kei. It needs a Kirin to justify her enthronement. Yet, the Kirin is nowhere to be found. Ever since Kei-e passed on, a new Kirin should have been borne to choose the next Kei ruler. Ko King, Count Manfred is aware of this procedure and has his guards watching over Kei, to ensure the Kirin's capture so that he can control the creature.

Kwai, year 1668, Liken period.

A strong gale passes through Kwai. It is a gale, over the red sunset. On Earth, Reika screams in her sleep. She is chased by monsters, she awakes to scream for her kingdom. It is her 18th birthday. The snowflake charm around her neck, bursts into blood at her screams.

A creature awakens. Manfred is alerted. His men try to capture the running creature. It is a stunning silver unicorn, with golden mane. Its horn is pure ivory, hooves, stamping onto the grass, are deepest ebony. It races through the ends of Kwai to avoid the monsters and guards after it. It leaps straight into another dimension.

Reika awakes to find blood from her charm, suspended in the air, like crystals, as if solidified. Startled at this unbelievable occurence, she touches the blood. It shifts and amalgates to form a word in ancient encryption: Kei. For some reason, Reika is able to read the word. Upon pronouncing it, the blood falls back onto her hand, and shifts back into the shape of her charm. A sudden tap on her window. Reika opens the window, and a gust of glittered wind passes through her. It takes shape in the form of the unicorn in her room. Still shocked, Reika can only respond in silence. The unicorn stops to rest and upon seeing its master, the unicorn bows. Out of its beastly form echoes a silvery voice, 'You are my master, Queen Reika, and I hereby swear allegiance to thee. I am your humble servant, Kei-jin, Kirin to the next Queen of Kei Kingdom.'

End of Chapter One.

2 days to X'Mas

What is this whole deal with Xmas? I want it to remain magical..like how I used to write letters and postcards to Santa Claus, and how for the few days leading up to X'mas, I'd try to be good so that he'll leave a nice fat stocking of prezzies on my bed. Of course that didn't work out. Much worse with over-realistic parents who trash the myth and nag that they have to spend $xxx on relatives' presents blah blah blah. Oh yah, not to forget the food they have to prepare for x'mas dinner.

It's 10.30 am. Despite how icky things have been in real life, I slept pretty well. Will have to plan a few things...
1. Food for X'mas part at Fort Canning
2. WHat I'm buying later for X'mas party with Dolus freshies (budget budget budget)
3. SRJC-RVPS CIP hrs
4. Think of a way to record my 13 songs (gosh..i'll never be able to get it ready by X'mas..)
5. what shall i wear later?
6. get dad to record Twelve Kingdoms and Inuyasha for me.

Oh yah if u happened to read the prologue of Red On Snow..it's inspired/adapted from Twelve Kingdoms, Lara Croft, Inuyasha....so it's not entirely original. But who cares man..It's my blog anyway.

DJ can't sleep so she'll write a poem...

(To my grandfather, who died of a stroke in Feb 2001, whom I never knew, but will always love)

On the death of a King:

Here lies on this bed of leaves
the King of Humility.
He lived as one with justice ruled
Noble as the earth
Benevolent as the sun
Patient as the tide
Gentle was his repose
His grace stood still

Tassels and leaves, rushes and silk
All to adorn the death of a king.
Burnt angsanas roamed the air
As tears of yearning
Made his bed a lusher shade of jade

Ixoras, periwinkles,
Swallows and mynahs
The kingdom bids its farewell.
His death is a passing
One to remember his goodness
Trees dressed in lace and lights
The bright of day
His grace stood still

The princes and princesses
Consorts and dukes
Whispered to him
One by one, loving him once more.

I gently clutch onto a piece of him
Within me
The King will always be
Still
By reliving his qualities, his ways,
this is how he will be remembered
And loved

Peaceful, lies the King
as I
hold onto the Queen's hand.

Debbie tries out storywriting...'Rapak-Noi' aka 'Red on Snow' Prologue

Characters:
Lady Alexis Westenra/Poppy/Reika (Hong2 Xue3) - Reigning Queen of Kei Kingdom
Lord Severn Westenra/Ryu (Xiao3 Long2) - Marquis de Winter, Twin Brother of Reika
Sir Takeshi Westenra (Jing1) - Deceased King of Kei Kingdom, Father to Reika and Ryu
Duchess Lucinda Locke (Ai4) - Regent of Kei Kingdom, Wife of Sir Takeshi
Sister Florence/Lady Cora Munro (Xuan2) - Caretaker of Reika
Kei-jin/unicorn (Qi2-Jing3) - Kei Queen's protector
Kei-e/gryphon (Qi2-Yi4) - Kei King's protector (deceased)

Count Manfred (Wen2 Ho2) - King of Ko Kingdom
Ko-ha/white tiger (Kuo4-wa2) - Ko King's protector
Raphael (Li4 Fei1) - Ko Kingdom warrior/assassin
Maya - prophetess to Ko Kingdom

Akira (Hei1-Ze2) - Reigning Prince of En Kingdom
Kenichi (Jian4-Yi1) - Deceased King of En Kingdom
En-u/phoenix (En1-Wu3) - En Prince's protector

Princess Nara (Huan2-Hua1) - Princess of Kyo Kingdom
Queen Lavanya (Lan2 Xiang1 Ya3) - Reigning Queen of Kyo Kingdom
Kyo-kiri/dragon (Qiao3-Er2) - Kyo Queen's protector

Rapak-Noi/Red on Snow Prologue:
The year is 1650, Haiku era. Historians up to the Haiku period have not figured out how many kingdoms were there altogether in the realm of Kwai, but there were 5 powerful kingdoms which the people living in the world of Kwai were aware of. Some kingdoms were allies since time immemorial. The others, brewed bitter rivalry against the more well-liked kingdoms. Each ruler of the kingdom was guarded by a divine protector - a magical beast of sorts that would transform into human or beast at its own will. The Kirins' mission is to protect their master, and to ensure that justice and humanity are meted out in their respective kingdoms. The 5 kingdoms were Kei, Ko, Tai, En and Kyo. Kei, En and Kyo enjoyed good friendship with each other - their rulers, Sir Takeshi, King Kenichi and Queen Lavanya were the best of friends. Tai had the most mysterious powers of them. And yet, its King also persisted on living a phantom existence, not having a bother of the kingdoms around Tai. Historians noted that the Tai King was the longest-living person in Kwai and his reign, would mark the longest reign a king ever had, in Kwai. Ko was the kingdom with the most notoriously bad reputation. Its King - Count Manfred, was scheming and deceptive. The other rulers did not trust him. It is the year 1650, Haiku era. Kwai was ruled in peace.

The end of peace and the beginning of turmoil was signalled by the timely arrival of a pair of heavenly blessings, given to Sir Takeshi. His newborn twins, Reika and Ryu would inherit his legacy, as foretold by Takeshi's Kirin, Kei-e. However, this news was only shared with Sir Takeshi, the twins' mother, and the heavenlies.

Location: Reika's room. A figure in shadow gently holds the sleeping Reika in her arms. The figure gently rocks Reika to sleep as she sings her own lullaby. 'Never forget thy mother's voice, sweet child...Never forget thy mother's touch. For in your embrace, you'll find love, safety and blessings. You will be safe with her...'The figure stops and carefully bites her finger. She gently slides her bleeding finger on the baby's lips. 'Lips as red as blood, onto thy snowy face. You shall reign with your pure, warm-heart and innocent mind. Blood on snow, true nobility shall reign after chaos is purges this kingdom of falsity.' The baby giggles in her sleep, not knowing that this is the last time she'll feel such warmth. Not until a few years later.

7 years later: Kei-e is poisoned by nobility. A vicious rumour spreads throughout the kingdom that only her master is capable of slaying the Kirin. There is chaos in Kei as Duchess Lucinda, Sir Takeshi's wife goes missing. Rumour has it that Ko King is usurping Kei and has killed Lucinda. Takeshi does not have long to live, as he is no longer under a Kirin's protection. He takes Reika and Ryu to Earth, where it is the year 1988. He leaves Reika with his friend, Sister Florence. With Ryu, he intends to bring up separately in Earth. But Ko's assassins catches up with Sir Takeshi and deuls with him back to Kwai. They kidnap Ryu and torture Sir Takeshi. Takeshi's friends, Queen Lavanya and King Kenichi send guards to help Takeshi. Kenichi himself dies in the battle. Soon after, Takeshi himself dies. Kei is thrown into a state of chaos. Ryu is kept under Count Manfred's captive. Sister Florence is led to believe that both father and son died. She does her best to bring up Reika, who longs for her mother.

End of Prologue.

Wringing thy brains out over an assignment due in 12 hours' time. =)

Funky I'd say...the first blog entry and I'm whining already. Haha. A good pal of mine was advising me not to post an entry if I was in a bad mood = would make me look like an attention seeker. But NO...I shall not whine. Even though I'm tired, brain juice wrought dry, I WILL PREVAIL!
Got this bloggie thingie from Si'en's blog. Yup, previously didn't entertain the thought of having one becoz I'm using dial-up and I'm barely online. But decided this is a good way of posting back messages on Si'en's blog. I mean..the ONLY way. Hehe =) Besides, writing out my frustrations would put me back to perspective..to quote, 'I WILL PREVAIL!' Yes! To all you who are bludgering yourselves cos of schoolwork, let me just proclaim, 'SCHOOL IS NOT GOING TO TAKE OVER MY LIFE!! I WILL NOT BE A NERD!!' =) Performative huh? Hehe..
I know that even if I don't do well, God still loves me. Si'en, I'm sure God will also heal your back. Just trust in His time =) I mean, if Jesus can heal leprosy, hemorrhage, etc, what's a back to Him? =) So yup, I will continue to press on because I know that for all the students out there who believe in God, we're more than conquerors!! (Romans 8) And NOTHING..not even bad grades, will separate me from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus my Lord! Bwahahah! (Extra-diegetic sound of thunder and lightning, like from those Bollywood movies)